Some time ago, in one of my posts, I mentioned a phenomenon similar to epilepsy. Today I want to share how I discovered this mysterious disorder, what steps I took to address it, and what interesting events arose from it. I hope this story will inspire you to boldly and curiously explore your inner world.
Sensing the Flow of Inner Energy
When I feel completely aligned with myself—truly me—I hardly change externally. However, inside there is a huge sense of fullness, like a current of energy that far surpasses my usual self. It is like having a gentle "double vision": one part of me dreams and wanders through vast inner landscapes, while the other remains firmly grounded and fully conscious.
In this unique state, I can feel and see what I focus on—almost as if I surround a person with a protective shell and read their story, feelings, and hidden wounds. Sometimes I even physically feel direct pain if it helps me understand what the other person truly feels. It is a powerful and humbling experience, as if I have merged with something infinite yet very close.
Observing Time and Hidden Veils
Time behaves unusually in this state. Some moments seem to last forever, while others—long-accumulated problems, perhaps lasting years—pass in the blink of an eye. I cannot fully explain it, but it shows how flexible our concept of time and healing can be.
During one of my "inner explorations," I felt as if walking through a gentle, refreshing veil when I noticed a slight change—a barely perceptible "cold gap." It was very small, like a tiny crack or wound in a huge energetic field. Still, focusing my attention, I sensed something hidden there. It reminded me of a very important but barely alive connection—like a long-accumulating laser pulse or just a drop of water falling at intervals instead of a huge stream.
Tremor Resembling Epilepsy
Driven by the desire to help and heal, I tried to "restore" or "fix" this barely noticeable gap. Suddenly, I began to notice my body twitching, similar to experiencing an epileptic seizure, although I have never had one. Every time a wave of energy swept through me, my body reacted physically; and when it subsided—everything would darken again. This cycle of ups and downs felt and looked like convulsions.
Over several months, I carefully studied this phenomenon. Finally, after understanding and resolving the problem, everything felt normal—as if it had always been that way. It really seemed so natural that it was hard to believe anything had been wrong at all. The feeling was as if the illness was just an illusion, even though others clearly saw the changes.
Interestingly, immediately after healing, all the detailed perceptions and insights gained during this process suddenly disappear. It is as if the whole flood of knowledge and understanding vanishes along with the wound itself, leaving me unaware that I had just delved deeply. However, since this happened countless times during my experience, I learned to capture faint memory fragments—like remaining traces of a deep but short-lived touch.
Discovering Similar Patterns
After this personal experience, I began to notice similar subtle "gaps" in other people. I realized that such minor disorders—or "cracks" hiding something deeper, and later restored connections—might be more common than I thought, yet very difficult to resolve. This opened my eyes and made me delve even deeper and ask what is happening inside us.
Later, I met a person who really had epilepsy. I noticed similar energetic disturbances in them as well. I applied the same restoration method and saw astonishing results, but this process required much more time than strength; here everything was deeply rooted and extracted almost cascade-like, more than I could dedicate. This shows how long and deep the importance of research and scientific observation can be to understand how these energetic flows work. Sometimes one person lacks the time to fully implement everything.
Moving Forward with Curiosity and Courage
The exploration of these hidden connections continues, and it requires both patience and courage. Although it may take a long time, every new discovery reminds me that reality is much more flexible and mysterious than we sometimes imagine. If anything, I encourage you to stay open, question everything, and believe that in one way or another you can restore connections not only in your life but perhaps in others as well.
For now, let's call all this Schrödinger's healing – after all, as true animal lovers, we appreciate both mystery and curiosity.